Still sometimes, I think of you softly, but I will cut my hand off before I ever reach for you again.
Just when you think you’re happy and possibly falling in love, things couldn't be any better. Your life is comfortable. Everything seems to be A-OK! Then you get bitch slapped by the universe, you lose your job, your man, your happiness, comfort and find yourself dividing up what's left of your relationship, into boxes. Just like that.. There was no rhyme or reason. People will say that one cliche thing that you don’t want to hear at that moment, "Things happen for a reason." Who really wants to hear that shit? It could be true.. You analyze over and over the series of unfortunate events that lead to the place that you are standing now. Then comes the information.. You know, the people who call you up to tell you things like "he's been cheating on you, he said it was over, and my favorite: Whoops, I slept with him but I had no idea you existed." If you were willing to go this far to find me, then why didn't you do the research before-hand? Should I believe this drunken, sloppy, pill popping mess? As they stand there, looking into your face, telling you how beautiful you are and how they are so sorry. You're sorry? Really?
Men rarely ever admit to their indiscretions. That would mean admitting that they did something wrong. No matter what, it's your fault. You didn't act right, you didn’t call, you started a fight or you were the one suspect of cheating so instead of me using my grown-ass man words to communicate, I'm going to project all of this onto you, deny everything and pretend you're the unstable, insecure one in this relationship. It's so much easier than having to admit what a douche bag I am. Note to men: this tactic is usually seen through by everyone. It's true. The only one you can convince to believe it is YOU. The woman may be temporarily insane, but her friends will ground her and once she tells her friends the story of how her heart got broken, your cover is blown. I don’t know why men think that they can hide things from women. Especially, other women. Another note to men, women NEVER keep their mouths shut. It shocks me as to what lengths a woman will dig into a man’s life. It almost makes me regret not doing it, myself. I try to give the other person the benefit of the doubt. Be fair. I believed you because you said that's how it was. I expected you to be an adult. You know, as women, we just assume after a certain age that men actually act their age.. Total myth! Some men do, and some men stay 15. Just because you act like your in highschool, doesn’t mean you can date girls in highschool!
Finally, if you’re going to cheat, CHEAT UP! I get that you’re insecure and so you need a classless girl to make you feel high and mighty, but seriously, what’s it doing for your ego? What does this say about your integrity? Where is this going to go? There is a reason she works in a strip club.. Or better yet, there is a reason she is putting up with you and I’m not.
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