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Excuse me, but can I be you for a while?
My dog won't bite if you sit real still
I got the anti-Christ in the kitchen yellin' at me again
Yeah, I can hear that

Been saved again by the garbage truck
I got something to say you know but nothing comes
Yes I know what you think of me you never shut up
Yeah I can hear that

But what if I'm a mermaid?
In these jeans of his with her name still on it
Hey, but I don't care
'Cause sometimes
I said sometimes I hear my voice
And it's been here
Silent all these years

So you found a girl who thinks really deep thoughts
What's so amazing about really deep thoughts?
Boy, you best pray that I bleed real soon
How's that thought for you?

My scream got lost in a paper cup
You think there's a heaven where
Some screams have gone?
I got 25 bucks and a cracker
Do you think it's enough to get us there?


Years go by
Will I still be waiting
For somebody else to understand?
Years go by
If I'm stripped of my beauty
And the orange clouds raining in my head
Years go by
Will I choke on my tears
Till finally there is nothing left?
One more casualty
You know we're too easy, easy, easy

Well, I love the way we communicate
Your eyes focus on my funny lip shape
Let's hear what you think of me now
But baby don't look up
The sky is falling

Your mother shows up in a nasty dress
And it's your turn now to stand where I stand
Everybody lookin' at you
Here, take hold of my hand
Yeah, I can hear them

But what if I'm a mermaid?
In these jeans of yours with her name still on it
Hey, but I don't care
'Cause sometimes
I said sometimes I hear my voice
I hear my voice
I hear my voice
And it's been here
Silent all these years

Gotta love Tori.

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VOLATILE RELATIONSHIPS

When is Enough, Enough?
V O L A T I L E; means changing or changeable. Its noun form is volatility, which refers to any of several measures of instability. Adjective: tending or threatening to break out into open violence; explosive situation, fluctuate, transient.
You may not like the person you love. The one constant you have is to agree to disagree. Both of you keep drawing lines in the sand that you say you’ll never cross instead of just being blissful and grateful that you are together. Maybe this has been your entire relationship but the
misery is finally setting. The extreme highs and lows, depression of being with or without them, with no end in sight. Why do we do this to ourselves? Because when we
break up, after a bit of time goes by, we only see the good times, the intimate moments that we still cherish and the weakness comes. You forget about all the arguments, who wasn’t trying in the relationship, and the lack of trust and the insecurities. It’s amazing how our minds work. How can we remember the good times outweighing the bad? So you know it was a volatile relationship so why do we want our exes back? I’m guessing it’s fear. Fear that someone will take our place, fear of something new and unknown, fear that we may get our hearts broken or fear we will never love or be loved again.
Q: My boyfriend and I seem to break up every three months. It’s like we are stuck in this crazy pattern of fighting, jealousy and game playing. I don’t understand why it always happens. Every time we start up again, he’s perfect. Slowly but surely, he picks fights and I feel like I am always walking on pins and needles so he doesn’t have reasons to break up. I love him and I want to be with him, Can you tell me how to get over the hump so we can have a normal relationship?
A: Every person has their breaking point; you obviously have not reached yours. You are going to do whatever you want to do until you’ve had enough. Until you decide you want something better. I’m not saying that you both don’t care about each other. It just may be that you can’t function in a relationship without the constant push and pull. And people get away with whatever you allow them to so take back your power, say you will no longer stand for this and make a clean break. If you really feel yourself wanting to go back, give yourself a solid six months without him and then evaluate how you feel towards him. It may be that both of you like the drama or that you’re just not ready to be in a relationship. Break up, to make up may be fun but it’s a terrible dysfunctional cycle that needs to be broken.

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“Atomic Bombshell”- Relationship/Sex Advice Column
Atomic Bombshell was born in Southern New Jersey. Later, moving to Los Angeles and now settled in the Philadelphia area. She describes herself as a Marvel comic book hero for women, with a disturbing sense of humor. She wrote a dating column for a local Philadelphia website called Atomic Bombshell’s Anatomically Correct Dating advice for almost 2 years before moving to internet radio. AB specializes in giving men advice from a womens perspective (where men go wrong with women). Also, she applies humor to solving your sex/dating crisis.
Credentials: If you want credentials, write to Dr. Ruth
Favorite Mythological Creature: Unicorn
Beliefs: Dungeons & Dragons
Astrological Sign: Pisces

Dream Interpretation, Anyone..?

Since about 2 weeks ago, I started having slightly different variations of the same dream. Last night, was probably the most vivid. I could actually hear and feel things. My dream starts with me either walking to a high cliff, that over looks the ocean or I'm already standing on it. It's late in the day but this sun isn't setting yet. I'm staring out over the ocean, looking at the sky for a few moments. The wind is so strong and loud, it's all I can hear. I feel like I'm blowing a little with the wind, so I'm trying to keep my balance. All of the sudden, I feel this ridiculously hard, push into my back/shoulder blades and I'm falling. I hit rocks on my way down. I feel like I've broken bones and I'm scraped, right before I fall so hard into the ocean. I become numb. It's really cold and dark. I can't see in the water to try to swim to the surface. I'm not even floating up. It goes on for so long that I can't hold my breath anymore. My body just starts to breathe in the water. I'm choking and gasping. I can feel myself totally slipping somewhere. Then I just wake up.

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To Set the Record Straight...

No pun intended.. Okay, a li pun!! This is NOT me.. Although it is insanely creepy that it resembles me. It's Deborah Harry, circa 1970's.. But now for the party on Thursday, I'm totally doing my hair like this!

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Bombshell Poster by Keen Imagery

One of my all time favorite pic's to be made into a POSTER!

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Therapy Part I

It’s been so long since I actually wrote a blog. Not just random words, not just chaos in a journal, or typing emails to my closest friends, trying to figure out what I’m doing wrong. I started this blog, literally on some EAT, PRAY, LOVE, meditate and you will feel better, shit but then my close friend, Chase, (Chasetheface.com, amazing writer) gave me a few rules to follow when writing;

If I bleed, you bleed,
If you made me cry, you are gonna cry
If you lied, I'm calling you out on it
If you fucked me over, bend over here it comes
If you gave me a hand back up when I was down, I'll never forget you and love you unconditionally.

I haven’t TRULY decided which way this blog is going to go or how much I want to divulge of my personal life. I am sure this will be one of many. I'm doing my best to get my angel wings. Now knowing what I know and some of the hidden truths about this person, speaks oceans of myself as well. Not that I was aware of all that he was doing or is capable of, but the fact that I didn’t see it. Yet, I gave this jack-ass a free pass for his excuses and how he treated me. As a writer, you have to be honest with yourself. Especially when you are a character in your story. For character's sake, he was the King of Bullshit and I was his fool.

Let’s just keep it very simple.
1)I do believe in meditation. I can’t quiet my mind long enough to not think about if I bought the right faux eyelashes to go with my dress for my next event. Someday, I will get there and become closer to the divine. So much energy goes into thoughts, words and feelings. So, remember that!

2)If you’re dating a man who’s secretive, controlling, possessive and has an excuse for everything, know that they’re his issues, not yours and most likely will have multiple women, out of his own insecurity. Please run! He will mind fuck you until you can’t see straight!

3)Always be honest with yourself about who you are, what you are feeling and what it is that has brought you to the place where you are now. Be kind to yourself and most of all, forgive yourself for making a bad choice. It's part of growing. Or so that's what my fortune cookie said today-

So this was my little piece of therapy, to myself, for myself. Thank you, Chase Allen for always being there and my literary hero!

PS: There's a traditional saying that says you can't push out darkness. You can only bring in light. If you're in a closet and it's black, there's no way to sweep darkness out. The only thing you can do is ignite, illuminate somehow. And the only way to get into a darkened miserable heart is to break it.

To be continued.....


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